To Visit the Moon, 2020
Due to the current global pandemic, I was forced to relocate to my parents’ home in Central Pennsylvania. In a time of social isolation, I was confronted with the terms in which this place held. I was looking for any type of escape from both this town and well… Earth in general. Unable to escape the monotony that is day-to-day life in self-isolation. I decided to take the initiative to get out anyway possible. So, being that I was confined indoors, I climb out of my bedroom window and onto the roof of my parents’ house. I stared up at the Moon that night, all night. I couldn’t leave per se, but I could look into this unknown, uncharted, desirable space that was the Moon. My longing to leave and human desire to explore the unknown pushed me into this mindset. I decided why not? Why not push the boundaries of our situation? How do I escape Earth? So… that is what I was going to do. As an amateur with absolutely no background in rocket science, I turn to the statistical data created by NASA surrounding the 1969 moon landing. This project developed into the creation of a self expedition to the Moon.
I dug deeper into the scholarship on space and the Moon. I learned that space was a type of utopian ideal that allowed people to escape their everyday lives. I saw how there are similarities between visions of queer utopia and space. Neither is fully comprehensible or obtainable. They are ideals and aspirations. The feelings of suppression forced me into a state where space seemed like the best out. Space historically has been the way to escape as an idealized space in which countries race to enter into. But outer space is a queer space that lets us see beyond this world and what is missing. It exists beyond the nonnormative logics and organizations of community, sexual identity, embodiment, and activity enforced by our society. Looking at Ilya Kabakov: The Man who Flew into Space from his Apartment, as not only as a work of art but as scholarly research I could use to plan my expedition into cosmic space.